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Dear sweet Kaiser Girl,

Hey girl. I miss you so terribly. I’m having a not so good day. I’m having a missing you day. It’s so funny and cruel that at times when I am happy and enjoying life I suddenly think of you and you not being here anymore and it brings me to tears every time..every time. I heard Renegade on the radio today andI couldn’t help but to fall to my knees and sob hysterically for at least twenty minutes after the song stopped. It’s those little things that remind me of you those little things that played some part in our friendship that really hit me in the heart. I have so many dreams about you and most are just you and I talking like we used to …talking about Chance and Levi and God. I love when I have those dreams, I just really hate to wake up from them and remember that you’re sti ll gone. Wow, 16 is such a fragile age for most young women but it wasn’t for you was it Jess? You were so ahead of the game. You knew who you were and where exactly you were going. Here I am almost 17 and I don’t even know what college I’m going to. The one thing that I’m really going to miss is not seeing you in the line up for Graduation next year but don’t worry I’m sure we’ll all save a spot for you in our hearts and when they play that all too familiar Pomp and Circumstance I’ll remember you rolling your eyes when we had to play it in band and I’ll smile. Once again I really miss you and every time I hear a styx song I’ll think of you and I promise I’ll try not to cry but smile and sing every single word because you would have. I love you beautiful blue-eyed girl. I’ll look for you in the sunset.

Steph